This past week was especially bad -- my family was visiting me, which meant food. A lot of it. Stuffed pizza, indulgent breakfasts (waffles, anyone?), etc. etc. I gave myself the poor excuse of, "Well, it's vacation, so I'll be lax on what I eat. I'll be walking around a lot, anyway." I really should have watched my intake more carefully, but I didn't.
Thus, I am starting over with my fitness journey today. No, I am not trying to drop another 20 pounds; I'd like to get back to my goal weight of 130, actually. I'm pushing for 125 just to prove to myself that I can do it, but I am content at 130.
So, until I hit my goal, I will be going back to what I was doing a year ago -- Sunday Weigh-Ins and Midweek Updates, with some other random entries thrown in here and there. This whole blogging deal is satisfying the need to write and journal in me, so expect more random entries than before.
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I wanted to make note of the fact that it's been a little over a year since I made the decision to lose weight and get back into shape. It was the best decision of my life. It took dedication, portion control, calorie counting, and a huge heap of motivation to get through it. I knew my goal, how to get there; all I needed to do was to do it.
And I did it.
The benefits have been amazing. My asthma is very much under control -- I can go a few days without using my inhaler now!. I am no longer classified as "overweight", but "normal". I can shop in the non-plus size section of the store. I can fit into size 7 jeans (for certain brands). I no longer look at photos of myself and think, "Jesus, I'm fat."
But more importantly -- and this may be TMI for some -- my period is regular. For the first time in 16 years, I have had a monthly period without the help of birth control. It's like clockwork now -- every 32 days, it comes. The period tracker on my iPhone helps me keep track of it, and thus far, has not failed to predict it.
Having a regular period is very, very exciting for me. Why? Because it means that I will most likely be able to have kids in the future if I keep myself at a healthy weight. My biggest goal in the world is to be a mother. I want kids -- at least two of them. Over the past few years, I worried about not being able to have children because of my irregular periods. I was diagnosed as having PCOS and took birth control pills to help regulate myself, though I knew that it was mostly artificial.
I worried. Boy, did I worry. Especially as I approached my mid-20's; I wanted to start having kids when I turned 30, after I established my career (or, at the very least, had a steady job). I wanted to be healthy and comfortable when I had kids. I wanted to know that my body was on track, so the irregular periods was not reassuring.
But it's back and I am happy to see it every month, especially since it is without any aid from pills. I fully believe it was because I got myself to a healthy weight. It is why I am so adamant on keeping myself within this weight range and why I want to keep myself as healthy as possible. Though I know this doesn't guarantee that I'll get pregnant easily, it is exciting to have it happening anyway.
Okay, back to my lazy Sunday. I'll post another post shortly. :)
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